As I Stare in Amazement

     As I stare in amazement at the number 429 I can't comprehend why in the world God chose me for this task. Starting this blog I imagined maybe 5 people would read each post, meaning I would only have 20 views on this page, which I would have been so thankful for...but 429 is not a number that I thought this blog would reach.

     So this is a shout out to Jesus! Thank you to the Creator of my mind for giving me words to say. Thank you to the One who formed my fingers so I could type each letter. Thank you to the Giver of wisdom who gives me all sorts of crazy ideas to write about and shows me the truth that I need to share with all of you. Thank you, God, for letting me go through these trials. They suck, a lot, and I complain about them, a lot, but in the end if it weren't for these trials I would not be able to write this blog. Thank you for giving me a passion to write and to help others. Thank you Jesus, for allowing my words to reach people who are feeling worthless and unloved so they know that ultimately they are loved by You and that is the ONLY thing that matters.
     I am constantly failing in conquering my feelings of being worthless and ugly and also in defeating my anxiety so I have no idea why He wants to use me. But as long as He continues to give me the words to say and the ability to share wisdom I will continue to write. I have plans to write more about self-image and self-worth, relationships and singleness (and how it relates to self-image), some awesome stuff that God has been teaching me, and there may or may not be another modesty post in the making ;). Like I said, as long as it is His will for this to continue I will continue to post!
     Also I would like to thank all of YOU for reading this blog! Seriously, I've never felt more loved by people in my entire life! Thank you for taking the time to learn about my life and hopefully learn something new to help you in your life. Thank you for sharing this blog with your friends and family. Thank you for supporting me! I love you all!!

As I stare in amazement at the number 429 I can't comprehend why God would bless me this much when I deserve none of it. So I'll stand in amazement and give Him all the glory!

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